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Sometimes I'd rather worship myself

Posted at 06:35am on 7th March 2016
Worshipping with Church is going to be hard because sometimes I’d rather worship myself.
 
I'd rather prioritise my physical and emotional comfort and security.
 
This will sabotage my experience of community worship - when we stand in the round together on a Sunday and sing, share and receive prophetic words, meditate in the quiet, and whatever else the Divine Company of God leads us to do.
 
I have found that I may only engage in these things to the extent that they serve my priorities. When it gets tough, challenging or uncomfortable, I may become passive.
 
But worship is never a passive response. It is an active choice, a drawing of the sword against the wayward systems of ego and fear life and the world my life resides in, taking control over my personal choice and dominion to reorder it in a life-giving way - with the Giver of Life as the one I pursue life from.
 
Ascribe to the LORD the glory due his name;
bring an offering, and come into his courts!
 
‘Good worship’ isn’t necessarily when it’s felt easy, emotionally stabilising or helped me feel instantly close to my perfectly loving Father. Yeah, we should crave and expect this as a dynamic of our real-life, two-way relationship with God. But for this to be our measure of worship is an immature understanding of God, ourselves and worship.
 
When worshipping God in Church feels 'hard work', distracted, emotionally demanding and gritty amidst my questionable integrity as I sing sincere desires of surrender; I’ve worshipped well.
 
When I decide in that moment to yield my body, voice and inmost being to him through my physical posture, my vocal chords and heart's whispers; I’ve worshipped well.
 
Did I give God the glory he's due?